Waiting on the Lord

When you are in need and you cant tell anyone except the Lord. When you are desperate for the Lord to show up. When you are depending on His promises. When the Lord is the only way you want out. When you have to trust and believe that He is telling you to trust Him. When you are waiting to hear from Him. When you need Him to show up as Belaparezim, the lord of the master breakthrough. When He is all you have. When nothing else will do. When you cant speak. When all you have is tears in your eyes.

job hunting

Its a pain, job hunting that is. Especially if you not on a job already. Im advised to take it easy, be calm and all, but how do I be calm when I needs to pay the rent. I will be calm, thats the advise Im getting. Anyway, i believe my father has it all planned out for me. Plans to make me prosper, and not to harm me. So i wait for a response from the applications i have sent. I dont want to loose hope because if I do then what have I done. So I wait. Im caught in between countries. Do I go back to Zimbabwe now or do I stay in South Africa and get experience then go back home. It has been my aim to eventually go and settle at home.

So I wait. I send applications and I wait. Sometimes they reply me and give me hope or rather more hope. Sometimes they just respond so rudely. And sometmes they dont bother to get back to you on the progress of the application. Before i start the blame game, I have been into my Junk mail today, ' thanks to my friend,' and there I discovered that some had responded and the mail was there as junk, rightfully so because i was not successful.

Am I meant to learn how it is like to job, since this is my line of work, when I get a job, I will be in Recruitment. I have learnt that it is important to be sensitive when responding to job hunters. If you have your job, keep it real, do not forget the job hunting experience and forget your work ethic.

decisions

so me and my friends, have finally decided that it is not good to leave things for the last minute, it is taxing, we definitely cannot work under pressure. To think we could have decided this 3years ago, likeydah. The funny thing is we have come to the end of our 3years, and the thing we have learnt is that, exactly that, not to leave things for the last minute. Im generally a distinctive student, but let me tell you, times are hard. I was estatic over an average grade, that is so not me. But i can deny it all I want, the thing is, of late that has become me. But all that is changing, and I have 1Corinthians2v5 to thank for it.

dude, u all just the same

So this guy, professes to love me, will never hurt me, will never disappoint me, that he will be different from the others. Blah, blah, blah. Does he really think I havent heard it before? Does he? I just let him go on stating the obvious. Does he think I will fall for the trailer? Does he know how many of those promises i have heard? Trust me, I know what Im talking about. I have 32years of experience, oh well minus 13years. You got it, yes, I started like really dating at 13, if I remember well.

So back to this dude: thinks he can impress me by coming to me bearing gifts. Ofcourse, I love presents. Who doesnt? I totaly adore them, but they are just that, 'presents'. So he musnt think he can win my heart that way. I say this because, in my research,most guys think equate love to money. Look, Im not trying to be unreal. Showering of gifts, can buy you companionship, but to win the heart, is complex.

The point Im trying to make is this dude mustn't think that he can win my heart that way. Some advice for him: try listening to me,when I'm talking, please dont do the talking. why should we compete. Stop blowing up my telephone (lol). Give me space to breathe. Let me process things. Do ome research dude, ' I aint your regular girl'.

inspired

im totally inspired to write about the obvious, not so obvious things in life. take for instance, friends. We all claim to have so many, but I think we dont know the definition of 'friend.' Hey, dont look at me, I dont know either. Its tricky really. If anyone should ask me right now, i would probably have an endless list of people I call friends. I have said this before, im sure of it, I have sais that if im still walking on egg shells around you, then, you are not my friend, neither am I yours.

I expect honesty, truth in friends. I dont need u to tread carefuly around me. We should be past that. I dont have to like or agree with everything u say or do. I like to think i give as much as i expect. If im not honest & truthful with u then we havent arrived at my highest level of friendship.
 
So, instead of coming up with a definition of friendship, lets just go with what we have. Only this time we will have different levels of friendship. Stay tuned as we explore these levels of friendship.